Anyone else out there with Trichotillomania?

I have been battling the disorder Trichotillomania for the past 9 years. I use the term "battling" instead of "had" because "having" something generally implies that you can just let it go if you feel like it or it clears up on its own. Well TTM(compulsive hair pulling) is not something I can let go of. TTM has basically consumed my life. I'm not happy anymore, I seldom laugh. The top of my head consists of short, broken hairs and bald spots. I feel so unattractive and I have very few friends. I would like to see a professional for this disorder but I have no insurance and no money to pay out of pocket. What should I do? Anyone out there in my situation?